Today was a good day but.. I managed to mess it up. I screwed up and didn't fill my med's last week so I ran out this morning. I will miss a few doses.. and I can feel the effects already. Panic, cold and hot sweats, shaky, irritable.. whoa it doesn't take long. Tonight I think I will double dose myself with sleep medication so I can forget about all of it and sleep until I can go to the doctor. I can't believe I lived this way before.. Thats craziness.. I was such a horrible person and now I have to rely on medications to get me through my day??Feeling silly and stupid, like I've shamed myself into this horrible stout of an existance..How do I get out?