Today I am missing my people.. I have taken an amazing liking to a few wonderful people here on this site.. they know who they are. I am enjoying their company and conversation by the minute and wouldn't miss a beat if I could. I am learning a lot about myself and some of the things from my past that I need to dig up - release - and burry once again for good. Everyone has skeletons - 23yrs young and I shouldn't have this many. I know people with the same problems.. 38yrs young, 20yrs young.. we will get through it all. My money is on you guys, I know we will stand by one another and take whatever comes out way. I plan to be there now just as I always will. I am not a not a liar, swindler, smooth-talker - I am loyal. If there is one thing that will always be my best and worst trait - it is just that. I neglect myself to help others and there are SO many people in this world whom do that. It's good and bad and all of the in-between.. But I am here, as much as I might hate things everyday in my life - I am determined to be around for the long haul. I've missed and decided against opportunities to "check-out early" and there is a reason why. I have a purpose here in this life, on this Earth - until my body dies and my soul is reborn into something else.. I just haven't figured it out yet. But that is what all this is about.. learning and understanding until one day you realize what it is you are here for. I honestly can't wait for that day.. because its so hard on the days when you feel you are worth nothing to anyone or anything..I am still thankful for You though. Thank you.The song of the day it...  "Boston" by Augustana ..."You don't know me, You don't even care ...You don't know me, you don't wear my chains.."  Boston by Augustana In the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,this world you must've crossed...you said...you don't know me, you don't even care,you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across an open field,when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who crywhen they see youyou said...you don't know me, you don't even care,you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...she said i think i'll go to boston...i think i'll start a new life,i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...i think i'll go to boston, i think that i'm just tiredi think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...boston...where no one knows my name...