So..This weekend I have been uncomfortable, restless, irritable and in pain...I went to a family reunion that was, a farce to say the least. I greeted everyone with a hug and a smile, it was their choice to be rude. I am aware in many cases for those individuals whom DO NOT like me for either being ... adopted, lesbian, wiccan, etc............ they are just ignorant but to show me to my face that it didn't even matter that I showed up anyway.. come on. Oh yes, I do take a lot of pills.. yah but I'm not telling you why because that will be yet another X on my bio page. Yes, I was in severe pain for a portion of the day and didn't feel like talking to anyone.. F off! I just don't understand why my business has to be everyone's business. Comments made here and there really piss me off... Basically, I only liked a few people there enough to talk to them since the rest of them are snotty evil people that have terrible energy - they are are all dominant and clearly have no use for me, so I can't fight it - just press on. But it hurts is all.. Its a good thing there were relatives from Holland there and though their English wasn't that great.. well neither is my Dutch.. we got along splendidly and had a blast!How hard is it to accept the fact that people are not perfect? People cannot choose their families.. they just have to make do with what they've got. Some people in this world would prefer to hold something against my Mother ... and Me ... I had no choice, so accept me or not. It's not a matter of them even really liking me, but accepting me would be nice. I hate walking on eggshells and feeling like people are going to talk about me if I do something bad or different. Thats ridiculous! Last time I checked, we were all adults.. and family.. I guess?Anyways, despite the few decent moments I had.. the weekend really was painfully long, hard and dry.. Thank Goddess it's over.oh... not to mention the fact that all some people (who only talked to me when they were DRUNK... ) kept asking me about my "wonderful partner"... seriously, did you have to bring her up? Because I was getting used to not thinking about her... talking about what happened... why... But I moved across the country for her... yes she took all my belongings... blah blah blah..After that weekend... I could use a big bear hug...I'm sure I wasn't missed much..grrrrrr