Today was surprisingly decent I must say.. I am really surprised... But relieved none the less. Even if I have a bad day tomorrow, at least I know I can have some good days.. I haven't had one in 3 months..I think about her. I want to make it stop, but I don't.. this is bad I realize but I'm not sure how to make it go away. I am afraid that I won't get over things and won't be able to love anyone else.. but I've done it before.. so I'm not sure. Silly. I am WAY passed high school and she's been able to reduce me back to that even for a few minutes.. sick really. All I need to do if focus on the path ahead... really getting in touch with my core and my spirit guide would be nice.. but it's happening perhaps, too slow. I really am trying. I appreciate others and the small things they do for me though, its very helpful. I am thankful for all Souls I come in contact with, since every single one of them has a purpose in my path.. sometimes, its just difficult to figure out what they are for...Oy Vay...