Worse

Everything in my life keeps getting worse...
I have yet to find anything happy to hold onto for the rest of my life...
My depression is worse, my anxiety is horrible, and my suicidal thoughts are non stop...
The only thing that helps is spending time with my girlfriend, but even then we just end up having a huge fight every other week...
I'm tired of hurting and hurting people...
I've been thinking that I should just walk off into the sunset, and then maybe keep walking...
Eventually I'll just fade away, right?...
There has to be an easier way to end all of this...
I didn't ask to be raped...
I didn't ask for my Dad to die...
I didn't ask for any of this...
So why should I have to deal with it any longer when it's slowly killing me anyway?...