Friday

Dear Journal:   It's Friday, normally I would see him tonight and for the weekend.  I have made alot of plans this weekend and feel good still.  Feeling different this break up.  I think it's because I'm learning and because of my friends on this site.  I feel very calm and relaxed, which I haven't felt in a very long time.  Why....I have no idea??  I have made a plan to visit his parents tonight and drop off  her plants that I was looking after at my house because they were on vacation. 
Every other break up I just discontinued talking with them and anyone from his family.  i really like his family and just discovered this morning I really like how they are such a great family and mine wasn't.  I like how they all spend time together and help each other out.  I also just realized that was probably part of the attraction to him for me.  Hmmmmm........
I will see them tonight and will tell them I will miss them and thank you for letting me be part of their family and how much it meant to me.  I feel this will help me put some closure to the relationship.  Why I'm not sure yet but I feel I need to do this and I feel good about doing it.  Not afraid, scared, anxious or anything.  Just want closure...................
Thanks for listening!