Thank you for taking the time and energy to maintain this site.  My sister sent me the link in the hope that it might help.  In a world where everyone is so busy and have their own issues to deal with they don't have the time or the understanding of my situation.  It really helps so much to be able to share and get feedback from others who have experienced the same emotions I have had to deal with.  It is also encouraging to know that one can get beyond the initial shock of it all and move on to a better place.