well its definitely been a long time since i've written. although DS has been so helpful to me in the past, i really feel like its not the right tool for me at this moment. i'm not saying i'm leaving and canceling my account, i'm just not sure how often i'll be writing. i am very lucky to have built friendships here with people who are in a similar place as i am. 2 of my best girl friends  also are looking to lose around 15 lbs. thats great because now we're gonna work together to help each other out. i've never had a real support group and i think this will be really good for me. i did very well when i had just my online support (you guys!!) so i can only expect much more from myself as i have my friends helping me out.  so everyone stay well and i'll be doing my best to check in every now and then to see how everyone is doing. stay strong girls.