its been a while since i've written...i just havent felt the need to write anything. for the past couple days i've been very lazy and have just hung around, being anti-social, and watched movies and tv. lame i know....but atleast i went to the gym! its all good though cuz i'm going out tonight and tomorrow night. i did have some proud moments recently though. last friday i worked a night shoot from 630pm to 7am. rough, i know. this is the second time i've done one of those and the first time ended up being disaterous when it came to the eating. fortunately, this time i was soooo good, and very proud of myself. i was with friends so that was helpful and i was happy most of the night so i think that all contributed to me being able to say no to the food...i just didnt need it (except of course when i was hungry ). i also have been doing good at work on regular days when i smoke weed before. i've been able to control myself very well. i actually havent had the oppurtunity to smoke during my lunch break anyway so that hasnt been a problem (the last few times i've worked we've had to take a shuttle to set from the parking lot cuz we had to park far away....can't so much get my own personal shuttle during lunch so i can smoke in my car...) i'm glad i made plans to go out tonight though cuz i was feeling the isolation bug. three people called me today and i didnt answer any of them. i havent called any of them back either. the only person i responded to was one who texted me...for whatever reason, i have no problem "talking" via texting but talking on the phone is something i avoid. i need to get over this. time to figure out where this problem is rooting from. it seems i dont answer local calls cuz they're gonna wanna hang out and i dont want to and i dont answer long distane ones cuz they're just gonna wanna talk and i dont feel like talking. this is not good...i'm just glad i still go to the gym and eat well. on a good note, i'm now only +.8lb which is great compared to +2lb. so that means i'm losing and i'll even be happy once i get back to 148 where i started. then i'm on my way to 135....oh how nice that will be!
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hey hun! ur not the only 1 who doesnt like answering phs or making ph calls for that matter i dont feel like it all the time either!
Nice to always hear from you. Hope you had a nice little break and get your thoughts together. Glad you had a good exercise week and work is good. Take care and Have a great weekend and Happy Easter! Kathy P.S. yes - 135-130 is my goal for May, we can do this!
I would call you shy rather than antisocial. Antisocial sounds so pejorative. I agree that you need to force yourself to pick up the phone or you are going to develop a full blown phobia. I had a phobia about leaving the house for awhile, trust me these things can snowball and its best to get them early! Each time you do it it will be a little easy but its all about consistency. These people want to hang out with you! Don\'t deny them their chance to worship you!
Hey - sometimes we just don\'t want to talk and vegging out is the only way to combat this. In time you come out of it and its all back to normal and you\'ll be chatting as per usualxx Take care you and hope you Easter has been funxx
going through an ignoring everyone phase here too. EXTREME SELF CARE let\'s call it that? glad to hear you\'re doing good =)