Day 80 omg! i ate waaaaay too much tonight! and drank more than i should have too! i didnt even get drunk, just close to it, but the wine made me tired and a little inhibited when it came to my eating choices. i pulled a move that i uded to do often when i lived here where i wait til everyone goes to bed and then i have more. i did well with dinner but then after everyone was gone i had another serving of dessert and some more tortilla chips. i feel ridiculously full right now and i'm concerned that will have have a food/wine hangover tomorrow. i guess all i can do now is get enough sleep. the gym isnt open tomorrow ( since it is christmas) but i may go for a walk when i wake up. my aunt, her dad and his girlfriend are going to church so we wont be doing presents until like noon anyway. i think i just need something to help me feel physically better. atleast i went to the gym today and i plan to as long as im here.  basically now what i need to do is realize that today was my big cheat/overdo it day so from now on i need to be as good as possible. i may not be counting calories but i still need to do my best and eating at night when everyone else is sleeping may not be binging (or else i would probably still be eating right now) but its still not good or healthy. and i feel so gross and full and i hate it. i only wish i could have remembered this feeling as i went for the second serving of dessert. hopefully i can remember this atleast for the rest of the time i'm here.  its hard to go back to a place where i was livin during my worst binge days. i ate so much of my aunt and uncle's food while i used to live here 2 years ago and when i come back its like i want to do it again. its so easy and i know where the good stuff is, what they usually have, and  that i can eat it for free. well, i need to get over this so that i dont get that urge whenever i'm here. the same thing happens when i go to my parents' house. luckily i dont live within a reasonable distance to either but it still sucks when i go and just being in the house makes me want to binge. well, i came somewhat close tonight but never felt out of control and stopped when i felt gross but i dont even want to get that far anymore. i have a few more days here and i'm going to try my damnest to not overeat anymore. i know i'm going to drink a lot since i'll be going out with my friends but i need to stop eating stupidly. good luck to me! Merry Christmas!