Day 32I'm baaaaaaaaaack! I got my internet hooked up yesterday and now i'm ready to be back here and continue supporting and recieving support because i know its a lot easier to deal with this when i have my journal and all you guys to help me out. and i finally got to catch up on everyone! so i need to talk about tonight. i was planning to go to class cuz i dont get to go very often anymore since i started working. however, i came on here, started reading through everyone's journals, deleted people who never come on (its kind of hard to keep up with 50 people!) and just got so into it that i decided to skip class and finish playing catch-up. so it was good that i took the time to see how everyone is doing but i also had a few too many sweets while doing it. as we all know, halloween was last week and after the big day, all the leftover candy goes on sale, big time. i actually forgot until i was at cvs on sunday and saw it. so i bought some candy corn, 1 bag of corn shaped and one of pumpkin shaped (luckily, there wasnt much else left and this was the only thing i liked). when i came home, i put them in 1 serving little baggies, like i did with my crackers. well, that idea works a lot better with crackers than it does with candy corn. although i didnt binge, i ate 2 bags of each kind. yucky yucky. they were spread out and i never felt out of control, thank god. but now my tummy hurts (candy corn always hurts my stomach when i have too much....yet i still eat them, go figure). so i'm ok having boxes of cereal in my apt, i'm ok having little baggies of crackers, but when it comes to this candy, it doesnt work. so what did i do? yes my friends, i threw away the rest of the candy. i dont need it and i dont need to deal with it in my apartment anymore. after i finish this journal i'm even going to bring the trash bag outside too...i dont really think ill go for the candy in the trash (oh but i know we've all done it!!) but it makes me feel better just having it out of the apt. i liked being able to reintroduce foods back into my life, and especially my apartment, but seriously, why would i even want to bring back that candy shit? it really is a waste of calories. i'd rather save eating that for when its offered from someone...and even then i usually dont eat it. how am i going to reach my goals eating that? candy doesnt even fill me up so what's the point in eating it when i'm hungry? i was in the habit of keeping ice cream treats in my freezer whether it be ice cream sandwiches, bars, or something like that but i havent bought those in a while. it seems i do better using those as a treat than candy so i think i'll just go back to that. or maybe i'll see how i do without any kind of sweets  around and instead i can reach for an apple, crackers, or my snack cereal. i think i'll see how that goes. ugh, my stomach really hurts now and i think i'm having a sugar crash...mixed with the fact that i've been up since 530AM i'm really tired. i'm so glad i have this journal back for whenever i want it cuz seriously, i already feel better about what happened tonight and i feel even better confessing it to everyone. i'll tell ya, i wont be doing that again. its a good thing it doesnt take too much of that junk to make me feel sick or else i may have had more. time to go to bed, get some serious sleep and wake up tomorrow ready for a healthy day! and same to you!!