Day 19Hello! I had my first commercial audition today and I feel it went very well….but no one ever knows what the director thinks! All I had to do was sit with 4 other people and pretend we were at a casino and when they told us we lost we had to pretend we did or if someone else won we had to be excited for them. It was very easy and actually a good time too. Maybe I’ll change my talent from dancer to actress, haha. Wish me luck!I’ve incorporated a few things into my eating habits lately that I think have helped me stay binge-free.1. As I eat, I wait until I finish chewing AND swallowing before I even go in for the next bite. I noticed I have a habit of preparing my next bite as I’m chewing, therefore not enjoying what’s in my mouth, but rather getting ready for the next one….which I also wont spend time enjoying as I’m getting ready for the next….so on and so forth. This slows me down so I’m not an eating machine. I guess it goes along with the idea of putting your fork down between each bite. However, I don’t actually put my fork down (what am I supposed to do with my hands then?!?) but instead I keep it in my hand and rest the bottom on my plate/bowl until I’m ready to move on. Since when I binge its fast and uncontrollable, avoiding the fastness seems to also avoid a binge and keeps me calm.2. I like to keep one box of treats, usually ice cream, in my apartment for the end of the day. There were two things I noticed I had done. One was that I would sometimes eat them in the afternoon, which opens my want for sweets for the rest of the day. The second is that sometimes at nighttime, I would allow myself 2 or 3 if I was at a certain point in my caloric intake for the day that could allow that. So, what I’ve done now is to not eat them during the day, no matter what, and save them only as a reward at the end of the day for me having eaten so well all day. For the other one, I have to buckle down and tell myself, only one. If I still have calories to spare I should eat something healthy that will fill me up a little bit so I don’t get hungry later on in the evening. 3. When I go out to eat, which is often lately, I usually have trouble deciding what to get….like it’s the most important decision of my life, haha. (This is what used to lead me to ordering a few different things and eating them all, back in my really bad days, when doing drive-thrus and take-aways). But now I’ve devised a plan to help me decide. I should pick something that is healthy, inexpensive, that will fill me up, has carbs and protein (so that usually involves chicken, turkey, or white fish for me), and most importantly, something I know I will definitely like! I know it sounds like a lot of things to think about, but what it comes down to is that these things will really narrow down my choices and there’s a better chance I’ll be satisfied after. So those are some new habits I’m trying to incorporate into my everyday life that I thought I’d share with you. I know different things work for different people, and I try explaining that to people who ask me how I’ve gone this long, but maybe these ideas an be helpful to you as well since I know some of you have given me good ideas in the past! Like I’ve always said, its one change at a time, and once it becomes a habit, you can move onto the next one. Don’t think I’ve done all 3 of these changes at the same time, it’s been over a period of time, I’m just announcing them all together. Let’s hope I can keep myself on track with these and continue my life in recovery. Also, I talked on the phone with my parents on Sunday and with my old roommate yesterday. Its the little accomplishments that make me happy!Have a fabulous day!