i finally got a new haircut! i've seriously had the same style for the last 6 years or so and today i changed it up. i cut off like 4 or 5 inches and got bangs! haha, i havent had bangs since 7th grade....but these are a little different. it feels so good to have taken a chance and done something different. it was funny cuz when i sat down and told him i wanted to cut off a lot of the length (it was down past my arm pits and i wanted it just below my shoulders) he asked me if i broke up with my boyfriend! i told him no and that i was actually moving. that is part of the reason but i'm just over having long hair like that. its very fine and when it gets past a certain point it just gets straggly but now its very healthy. the weird thing is that i think for a long time i was kinda hiding behind my hair....or hiding my weight behind it. i remember when i really started gaining weight almost two years ago, i started wearing my hair half up and let long strands hang down in the front...it basically covered up my fat cheeks that were forming. i dont do that anymore but i still kept it long thinking it made my face slimmer or something, i really dont know exactly. it made me feel prettier too and more girly, but i dont need my stcuzzy hair to feel that way anymore. i was ready to get rid of it. maybe this is part of my new life thing. so as i'm getting prepared to move to LA, i needed to get some headshots. in case some of you dont know, those things can cost a pretty penny...up around $500. yeah, i'm not going to pay that so instead my roommate and i took some pictures of me tonight to use until  i A) get and angent or B) feel the need to spend the money on the real thing (she's good for something!). we took a whole bunch and later narrowed them down to the good ones i could actually use...about 5 of them. i'm down around 145 now, about 15 lbs down from my weight as of 7/1 so i was feeling pretty good about how i was looking. however, some of them were pretty unflattering though and the usual culprit is my fat arms. now, i'm not saying that to get sympathy from anyone or hear the "no, they're not fat"....but they are. i have that awful under-flap thingy going on and i feel that no matter how much fat i lose, the skin will still be there....beautiful, loose skin. i remember when i lost a bunch of weight in college that i had this problem but i dont remember how big they were. its just kinda depressing to know that my arms arent going to get much smaller and being the size that they are just makes me look even more top-heavy. i have an hour-glass figure so my upper body is rather broad anyway but my arms make it look even bigger. i've thought about getting cosmetic surgery many times but i'm just concerned about what kind of scars it would leave. who knows...i guess i'll just have to wait and see how they are when i get down to my goal weight. anyway, i hope you're all feeling well today and staying healthy!