i cant wait until i live alone and i dont have to live with my "best friend" anymore. seriously, if she were my boyfriend i would have broken up with her by now. the only thing i liked having her around for before was that i wouldnt binge if she was here. well, i think i'm ok enough that i dont need her for that anymore. i'm doing it for myself, not because she's watching me. 1 more week and i'm out of this apartment. actually, my last night sleeping here will be saturday cuz my replacement is moving in on sunday so i'll just go stay with my aunt and uncle on sun and mon night. ohhhh, how badly i want to be in my own apartment in LA, starting a new life, having new experiences and making new friends. and this time when i do it, unlike when i went to college, and when i moved to marin, and when i moved to san francisco, i will be binge-free and i'll be able to enjoy myself as i'd like to. no worrying about how i'm gonna eat, spending my nights and some days bingeing, isolating myself,  trying to avoid binges and all the other bs that goes along with this horrible disease that we all knew and loved at one point in time. i'm gonna do it the right way this time....the way i wanted to before.