its official...i've gone 6 weeks without bingeing! damn, i really can't believe i've come this far. now i really have no choice but to keep going because seriously, i would be a complete fool to go back to it now! i obviously dont need it and i've gotten through parties, being home alone, being bored, being upset, crying, anger, hangovers, you name it and i'm sure its happened during the past 6 weeks....and i never turned to food. i'm so proud of myself. i wish you all could have been there for my entire journey, instead of just my recovery so you could see all that i've been through. but you'll just have to take my word that i've been where every single one of you is (except of course those of you who have gone longer than me!) and have done most of things you've done as well so please please please dont give up. i never did, i kept trying every day whether i failed the day before (and the day before that) or not and it finally happened to me. i cant give you any answers as to how it happened, because i dont really know, but when you're ready you'll be able to do it. i'm sure we all have our reasons for doing it and there are different ways for us to change our ways and defeat this so you'll just have to find what works for you. i've slowly changed many things about my lifestyle that i never thought i'd be able to but one at a time i did....and they've all added up. even as i was changing, i was still bingeing but once enough had changed, that's when it stopped. i never want to binge again, not even as a treat like i used to cuz "i hadnt done it in so long". instead, i'll be happy i havent done it in so long and keep it that way....use it as motivation. i've had my final last binge and i wont have another, because we all know we've had tons of "last binges" and they never are. well, now mine is for real. 6 friggin weeks!