ONE MONTH. 31 days. the last time i binged was 8/7 and today, 9/7, marks one month since my last binge. awesome.

 so i've lost about 10lbs now and my clothes are starting to feel looser. i love that. i cant wait until i can start pulling out all the clothes under my bed and start wearing them. what is kind of annoying to me is that no one is noticing! i've had one friend make a comment that i look thinner and thats it. one person! i know i havent lost a significant amount of weight but i was up around 160 for a long time and bounced around 155 for some time as well. and now i'm at 147 and i would like someone to notice! is that too much to ask??? i know they will start noticing soon, and i also know that i dont need them to say anything to know how far i've come, but its still nice, ya know? i guess it will just give me more motivation to keep going....not that i dont plan to keep going anyway.

so i was hungover again today. jeez, you guys must think i have a drinking problem, but i swear i dont!! hehe. i had planned on having 2 glasses of wine last night but of course when you're friends with the bartender its so easy to go above that. when it came time for a third glass i told him to just pour me a little bit but instead he decided to fill the glass almost all the way (a normal glass is like 1/2 that) and just finish off the bottle. i didnt drink the whole thing though but i'd say i had about 3.5 glasses throughout the night. so i know that doesnt sound like a lot but i got drunk off that! i remember the good old days when i could have like 6-7 drinks and get drunk and now i cant handle 4??? my goodness. but i think the problem was that i was drinking on an empty stomach. i know that's not good but i'm trying to keep my calorie intake low so if i know i'm going out drinking at night i try to eat less during the day. it worked out that i only had just above 1800 cals for the day, including the wine, so i was happy....but i was not happy with how i felt all day today. yuck. on a good note, i'm still sticking with my idea that food will not help me to not feel hungover and ate normal today eventhough my stomach felt gross all day. props to me for not giving in to the awful hangover feeling. i cant wait until i'm not trying to lose weight anymore and i dont have to eat less on those drinking days. actually,  i cant wait until i'm not trying to lose weight period.

did i mention that i've gone one month without bingeing???