unbelieveable. i've gone 4 weeks without a binge. i never thought it could happen and i can't remember the last time it did.  i was reading through my old journals on here and there was one where i was hoping to make it a few more days and left it at that cuz i was being realistic in thinking that making it much longer than that would be close to impossible. well, here i am at 28 days and going strong.  i really dont see myself going back to the old ways. i am so much happier and energetic now. i was at work last night and was really tired from lack of sleep. however, i was still able to be very polite, patient, and happy with my customers without much effort. i remember many times when i was tired at work but had so much difficulty pushing through the tired feeling and getting out of my bad mood and there were times i was just plain rude to people. the difference here is that my rude times were not so much because of a lack of sleep but actually from being physically and mentally tired because i had put my poor body through so much. i'm so glad i havent felt that way in such a long time. i've been in bad moods but it so much worse when i do it to myself in that way...and i never want to make myself feel that way again.i was apartment hunting online today and i felt hungry. i had eaten breakfast only 2 hours before so i wanted to make sure i was physically hungry and not bored from just sitting around playing with my computer. i try to eat every 3 hours so if i think i'm hungry before then i like to do the test where i wait 10 or so minutes just to make sure. i was doing that today and my stomach growled....i guess its real! i remember times when i would binge in the middle of the day and not feel hungry for the rest of the day but still eat anyway. i like eating when i'm hungry...i dont want to eat when i'm not hungry anymore. i always knew the consequences of bingeing but i never cared....until they happened. i knew i would feel sick, tired, guilty, fat, lazy, defeated, disgusting, etc, etc but it didnt matter. bingeing at that moment in time was so much more important that anything that was going to happen after. not anymore. i dont really think about bingeing anymore. its more like i think about how i'm not going to binge because i dont want to feel those things due to something i've done to myself. i know these feelings will come and go in my life, which is fine, as long as i dont bring it upon myself. i dont want to make myself feel that way anymore.4 friggin' weeks! 28 days! awesome.