first, i had to work tonight. a co-worker of mine asked me to split a dulce de leche spring roll with her, our AMAZING dessert, and i said "hell no!". so when it came up, i had one bite and that was it....just one! it was just like the cake last night. i never thought i could be that "just one bite" person and now i've done it two nights in a row. i'm still in shock a little right now. later i went to a friend's b-day party. i was dreading it a little cuz i didnt want to drink to much and go over 2000 cals and i didnt want to stay out late cuz i have to work in the morning. well, i only had two drinks and i left the bar at 1AM! (last call is at 130 and the bar closes at 2 so leaving at 1 is early). i was so proud...and i had a great time! i saw a bunch of my friends who i havent seen in a while, cuz they live right outside the city and i didnt feel  i needed to get drunk to have a good time. i wish every night out could be like this...or maybe it can! and on top of all that, i was dancing at the bar (right bittenkitten???) and i walked home, which was about 20 mins and part was up a big hill (thank you san francisco!) so i prolly burned some calories too! its nights like these that help me get over my fear of going out and socializing with  people, even my friends. the funny thing is that as i was walking home i started thinking about you guys and about writing in my journal to tell all of you how i did tonight. its the little things that help us realize how far we've come. things that we do that a non-binger wouldnt understand as a big acomplishment. yeah they may be like, good for you for not eating bad and drinking a lot but they dont understand how big of a deal it really is. after going through all the shit we have, any day that we dont binge is a triumphant day...and any day we do something a typical binger would not do i even better.  on a final note, i also fought the "i've been out all night and have been drinking" munchies and won.