so tonight i hit 2000 calories and i know that's not bad but i went over 2000 a few nights ago and i know i'll prolly hit it tomorrow too. the other night and tonight were both only because i was out drinking and i assume it will happen tomorrow too because my friend is leaving the country and we're having a party for her....so we're going out drinking. what's good is that i'm going over because of drinking, not eating, and i'm out having fun with friends. what sucks is that i'm going over and i'm trying to lose weight. i want to go out and have a good time, and i know i dont need to drink to have fun, but i want to drink. i feel more conversational and more comfortable talking with people, even my friends, but it sucks when i have more than one social drinking event to go to in one week. but i'm 25 and that's what me and my friends do. i know most of us get anxious about going out and i don't know what all your reasons are but mine is because i don't want to go over 2000 cals and i know if i go out to dinner and drinks then i definitely will. i only had 4 drinks wed night and tonight, so i guess its better than how i used to have like 6 or 7, but still, that's an extra 400 cals. most weeks arent like this though. i usually only have like 1 social drinking night but i get nervous everytime one comes around because that means i wont be able to do it again for another week....since i only like seeing myself go over no more than once a week.  so i guess what i need to remember is tha tmy main goal right now is to not binge eat and second to that comes losing weight. if i get through this tuesday then i will be at 3 weeks so i need to keep focused on that. with abstinence from bingeing will come weight loss but i think as time goes on i need to keep a closer eye on my drinking....not because i think i'll develop a drinking problem but if i want to lose weight then i need to keep my cal count down.  so i'll just keep having fun with my friends and keep watching what i eat...and keep the drinking to a minimum.