i hate grocery shopping. i would love to make a list, give it to someone, and have them go for me. because i eat bananas and apples everyday and cucumbers most days, i need to go like once a week since fruits and veggies only last so long. everytime i go its like a test of my willpower. i remember many many times where i would pick up a treat or two, sometimes more, and devour it as soon as i got home...even if it was a whole box of something, chances are that box would be gone by the end of the day...or the end of the hour. its such a struggle to walk by all those yummy things and think about how delicious they are, or if i've never had them before then how delicious they must be. i try to avoid the aisles where the goodies are but sometimes i find myself walking them....why? maybe to test my willpower, maybe to reminisce about the days of enjoying them, maybe cuz deep down i really want to buy something. i dont know. but what i do know is that i'm good on my way there but as soon as i walk in i get nervous that i'm gonna walk out with something bad that i know i shouldnt be getting. i've been doing good lately and haven't bought any sweets; except i buy ice cream sandwiches because i know i can enjoy them in moderation unlike a lot of other junk food. making it through a grocery store trip and not buying crap just to go home and binge on it makes me feel just a little more "normal".