its nights like these that i actually am glad to have a roommate. i stopped eating tonight at 1500 calories because of her. i would have gone up to 1640, which doesnt seem like that big of a deal, but because i haven't been so active this past week, i'm trying to stay as low as possible....besides, those extra 100 each day and add up and slow the weight loss progress. i was contimplating whether or not to have another ice cream sandwich tonight for about an hour. the only reason i didnt was because she already saw me eat one and i didnt want her to see me eat another. luckily, after that hour, i got up and brushed my teeth to end my eating for the day. i'm going to bed soon and do not need that energy from the ice cream. i also do'nt like going to bed hungry...which i am a little bit. but how i feel about this whole thing is that if i say no to my cravings enough then it will just get easier. if i stop making it a habit to give in to my wanting something i do'nt need then maybe it will get easier to say no. i dont know if that will work but i should be doing that anyway so it doesnt matter. in the long run, tonight i made a good decision to not eat that ice cream. i'll be a lot happier about my decision tomorrow when i look at how my food journal is looking. even looking at it right now makes me happy. i weighed my lowest today, 151, and even if i weigh 150.8 tomorrow morning i will be so freakin happy. and yes, i know the scale shouldn't predict how i feel, and when its not what i want i've been really good about it....but those days when it goes down, whoopee! its been almost 2 weeks since my last binge and that is such a great feeling....and since then i've gone over 2000 calories once. if i keep this up, my weight will continue to go down and i will reach my new goal of 140 before i move....originally it was 135 but i made some mistakes and that won't happen anymore. basically, if i get below 145 i will be happy. its nice that now my eating is more under control so i can worry more about losing weight than controlling my eating. i'm on my way....