August 20, 07life sucks!!! today my husband was going through bills he came across a credit card bill. he asked me what the hell did you buy? at first i couldn't remember, my memory sucks. he told i had to stop buying things i would if i could. i tired to explain what happened he just said i don't give a damn just do it. talk about being slammed. i wished he would listen to me and then help me. i don't know which is worse becoming a shopping freak or go into a major rage. i just wish i had someone to talk to. am i the only one that feels like this? it seems like if i start feeling alittle human i get knocked right down, so why bother with trying? i'm tired of trying, i thought things would be so different at this stage of my life. my youngest is almost 15yrs. this is suppose to be peaceful some what any way.