Lets face it, Ive lost my best friend. I know it's my fault because i've been so distant from everyone. I can't even begin to explain the loniness i feel. Im pathetic. I have no job, no school. I'm 19 years old. And I can't even keep a freaking job, because i can't handle it like i used to. Im trying but its hard to put naything into action.
 
My ed has been getting bad again. I havent been cutitng as much which is why i have probably been purging and restricting more. Im kinda afraid im getting back into this stupid little cycle again, and im too afraid to tell anyone. 
I can't even break away from my parents the one thing that makes me feel so bad about myself. I dont now whats wrong with me. I was doing soo well, but i kinda just fell apart all of a sudden. I am jsut praying things will be okay again, but at this point i dont even know.
The sad thing is, my cousin told me she cant even see me here in the next year and a half if things dont change... im afraid she's right...