Okay well I started of on my Ds. Ive been here for forever, but I just needed some change ya know. Focus on me for once. It was too much drama with other people who had refused to get help. I felt like i was gong in circles and it was always the same stuff. I guess it proved to be really triggering for me. 
But alot has happend in the past 2 weeks. I finally went to the docs today. i freaked cause i was worried about my Si scars but she was pretty chill. And secondly i finally got am appointment for a new psychatrist and a new therapist so im hoping i really like them. we shall see. im kinda worried that i wont but that means i can find one that i always like. Im trying to stay more positive about things cause it's been pretty rough lately. 
The thing about the doc today is that they didnt know about my ED and the past, so i got weighed today and those numbers automatically triggered me so im really trying hard to stay away form that. and yeah ill prolly write more soo i kinda figured i should jsut post at least one journal. I really havent been on too much. but i hope it changes.