All I want is to dieIs that so fucking bad?Why is it ok, for me to be so sad?Should I have to suffer?For everybody else?What about me?What makes me happy?What about myself? Who the hell do I live forWhos life IS it to end?Yes I understandI have a lot of friendsI have a lot of family They love me a whole lotBut then please wont you understandI want this pain to stop!!!!I want to stop feeling emptyBroken and alone! Maybe I am meant to dieTake the trip back "Home"Who are you to tell meI have to fucking live!I am a grown ass manI am not a fucking kidIf I want to die nowI motherfucking will!I am sick of feelingThese motherfucking chillsI  am sick of feeling Empty and so  deadSo now please excuse meAs I put this bullet through my head.PLEASE DONT  TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY ITS VENTING IM NOT DYEING AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH