Life

Life is cruel confusing and coldWhy must I be such a tortured soul All I want is to be free from all the doubts inside of meDoubts about my insights, doubts about my goalsDoubting everything Im taught and all I did once knowDoubting my conviction and doubting my desire Doubting if I will ever get the gumption to jump out of this fireOr will I stand here burning, Until there's nothing leftJust a big steaming pile of ashes in what use to be my chestAs Lay there charred people are dancing my my ashesThe twirl and laugh so full of glee all the joy that has passed meEven tough Im dead I still envy their each and every smileEach and every whisper they share with one other Each and every kiss makes me feel like a child lost without a mother. I wish I could come back to spend the night with youBut at least I see you dancing with another guy or twoat least I see you smiling like you could not when with meAnd now I know my darling this was my destiny.