Alone

So damn alone all over again.Bored thinking thoughts that stream through my pen Onto the paper, My tears hit the page screaming I wonder what will be the ageThat this horror is over when will my life endWhen will I see your face over again.I miss you so badly and wonder inside if you miss me too even now that you've died Now that your gone my pain never leaves just like these scars when you roll up my sleeves. I toss and I turn at night in my bed and I see your face inside of my head...I wish I could touch you even just for a second.I hope that you made it safely to heaven... I wish I could hear you speaking my name  but instead I know that things cant be the same.I hope that Ill see you soon my sweet love..until then I hope that you watch from above. Keeping me safe in the darkest of nights Keeping me warm like a blanket in beddry as can be when rain pours in my head.Just like the umbrella I hold over my head you are my angel and Ill hold you again..When ever I need you  Ill just reach out my hands and there you will be my pain you will cleanse.