I feel like i should do something, you know? I need to go, I need to leave this house, leave this family and rebuild my life, but there's people here that don't deserve it, besides, leaving my brother is a terrible thought, I love him more than anyone. So my choices is: leave this life, including my brother, or stay here, be here for him, but feeling this bad everyday. 
Thing is, i don't know if I can do either the options.