Finally...

I just told my best friend everything.  He's always always been there for me and I'm actually surprised it took me this long to tell him.  I really hope he can help me, because all I've wanted this whole time was for one of my friends to know and understand and care but none of them have.  I sent him a really long text explaining everything..  what I do and how I feel.  He hasn't answered yet and I'm really scared, but he's always been there, so I don't think he'd say anything bad.  I don't know...  I'm just scared.  I don't want to lose my best friend over this.
:-(