Wow.

Last night was hard... I want to be proud of myself for not giving in, but I don't think it was really my strength that helped me. I didn't have my razor blade on me, after only a couple minutes of struggling someone came in the room.. I just feel like had my purse been right there or had I been left alone I would have done it, so I don't really deserve to be proud of myself. I also know it could have been a lot worse, and I know someday it will be. I'm not sure if I can handle it when it does get that bad.
Regardless, that's one more day that I haven't cut (for whatever reason), and for that I'm grateful.