mood is crazy today up and down up and down. felt so angry this morning totally ilogical reasons - no reason at all to be that angry.
this afternoon feeling drained and tonight slighty hypo!!
this afternoon feeling drained and tonight slighty hypo!!
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Good morning world : (
Feel hurt this morning - totally irrational not the best start to the day think I have people all over the world. Well on here anyway with stupid comments.
I am going to make something positive today. Don\'t know what yet but I am. Gotta go shopping with boys - school shoes
You are not alone on this one. I have those days when my mood turns to anger and hate for no reason. Its not even aimed at a specific person or thing. Its almost like everything I see makes me angry. Everyone I see I hate.
I am not surprised about the turn to hypo either. My experience is that I feel the rage more when I am up rather than depressed. The real key is to find ways to work through the storm. You can\'t always stop it, but you can get through it.
It seems that when I am depressed I only hate myself and when I am whatever this is called I hate everyone. They get on my nerves and the scary thing is I am like this in my head towards my boss when she dosent text me straight back and I loss it just for stupid reasons like that. Now I know that my boss would not ignore me and she is busy but at the time I just think Fuck you then you ignorant cow. Etc etc. Do you think that need will help with this gmason x
I would say yes. The anger, rage, and paranoia can be helped with medication. Its one thing I need to talk with my pdoc the next time I go. I can sympathize with what you write. When I am down its hate turned inward. When I am manic is hate turned out. When I am stable, then there is no hate.
Bring on the stability and then I can be the lovely person that I know i am really.
I know this sounds odd but I am hoping so very much that the shrink will diagnose me with bipolar. This is for 2 reasons. One is that they actually believe me and the second is that i don\'t have to leave this support group!!!
Anyways there are many positives about me and i need to remember this and start focusing on them.
One thing you wouldn\'t need to leave. :). Second is that they may not even tell you. many pdocs start treatment, but never say you have this or you have that.
Thank you so very much for your kindness x I will update you on Tuesday wen things may or may not be clearer x I really have found comfort and support here.