two many questions :
my head is spinning this morning and i am getting frustrated, need to focus on something else other that Tuesday.
my appointment scares me so much i guess its of the unknown more than anything. i have seen some pdocs before and they where dicks i just hope this one is not the same. i need her to believe me, believe that i,m for real and tell me that i'm not just some drama queen with unresolved issues. true i have had one hell of a past but i feel that i have delt with stuff and moved on.
granted it took along time to get over things that have happened but i no longer dwell on the past and believe that i can and will make a solid future for myself, caroline and the boys. All i need is a little support doing that.
keep going over and over in my head bi polar or not bi polar - today making other excuses or reasons for things. maybe just too much caffine?
denile is the oppersite end and i feel that there is nothing wtong at all i am just a poor coper but then if that where true i would not be here now still facing life.
well i guess Tuesday is the judgement day and it cant come soon enough
my head is spinning this morning and i am getting frustrated, need to focus on something else other that Tuesday.
my appointment scares me so much i guess its of the unknown more than anything. i have seen some pdocs before and they where dicks i just hope this one is not the same. i need her to believe me, believe that i,m for real and tell me that i'm not just some drama queen with unresolved issues. true i have had one hell of a past but i feel that i have delt with stuff and moved on.
granted it took along time to get over things that have happened but i no longer dwell on the past and believe that i can and will make a solid future for myself, caroline and the boys. All i need is a little support doing that.
keep going over and over in my head bi polar or not bi polar - today making other excuses or reasons for things. maybe just too much caffine?
denile is the oppersite end and i feel that there is nothing wtong at all i am just a poor coper but then if that where true i would not be here now still facing life.
well i guess Tuesday is the judgement day and it cant come soon enough
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I am so fucking angry right now - my partners mother just knocked on the front door too ask if the bin needed to be out. I said I don\'t think so and she told me everyone else was out.
I just think so fucking do it then. Why even ask me? Just leave me the fucgk alone.
I wouldn\'t mind but its her fucking rubbish as well as she lives at the side of us in an annex.
Arggghh stomach boiling ffs.
Thanks Gina
I just don\'t know what\'s gotten into me lately. I am like a flipping yo yo.
Now believe it or not sometimes I am a very logical person who ways up pros and cons and looks at so what if but at the minute I feel my brain has been invaded by mash potato.
I am a very lucky person and have no reason for me being down angry or upset. I have a home that I share with my wonderful, loving and very supportive partner. Her two lovely sons and our 3 dogs.
I am still in a bit of debt from some crazy time in my life when i spent 20 000 on what god only knows but I am on top of that now.
I have a good job which I love very much.
So someone tell me why I sit crying and don\'t want to get out of bed at the minute because i really do have everything to look forward to.
Please tell me this is a symptom of bi polar and that im not just an ungreatful arse
You have hit the nail on the head my friend when you relate it a holiday. I finally get it however you missed out that i also very good looking when you say I am smart and funny ;-)
On a serious note - i think I can relate my mania to the flirt in me. This I guess is when I am manic when i seem to flirt all the time. You will have to forgive me in the future ok.
I have decided to put Tuesday behind me for now. It doesnt matter what happens. Worrying about it wont change anything at all and it wont make the appointment any different. Just deal with what we know when we know it.
Although in have to admit I will be a little gutted if not bi polar - will have to leave this support group :-(
Also I re your comment drawn - I am also drawn to you and read hour comments when you post which keeps, e very busy lol (((hug))) back x