hi Journal,  lets see where do I begin. I saw my doctor about my legs and he gave me new medications.. This only caused a reaction, and I became itchy and of course the more I scratched the more I caused more problems for myself...so doctor changed my meds... I still itch and cant stand it..cant sleep long,as itching wakes me up..so between itching,hurting from all the scratching, and no sleep, I am miserable..Plus, the new meds he put me on causzed my sugars to reach the high of 521.. It is suppose to be no higher then 130,according to my dr!!! He tells me this is the normal with the pills I am on now... So, this is my choice I guess.. I can either have the itching or low sugars..since the sugar levels has not caused me any trouble, I think right now I would rather have the high sugars...but wonder how long before I will have trouble with the high sugars..  Got email from a long time friend and her husband past away yesterday morning at 3:20.. He has the same cancer as my hubby,so of course I broke down and cried and thought of what is going to happen here with my husband..My heart goes out to my friend,and yet I also thik of the situation here..I will talk to her tomorrow, and see what help or support I can be to her....This is the 2nd husband she has lost in the last 15 years...She has noone here except one son, who she relys on right now. How sad not to have someone there for her from the family, but her family is up in NY, and his family is scattered away from our state...The body is being sent to Texas and my friend will be moving back there as this is her home.. When her first husband past, I flew to Texas to help her, but this time all arrangements have already been made,so cant help her too much with this..except be there for her...I cannot even think of making arrangements right now for my hubby, but she and this husband were able to do this. Maybe it is better to have everything figured out, but I doubt if I can do this now..Of course I have family I can get to help me when my time comes, but it still has to be hard to plan your own funeral....right now this itching has began itching alot so am going to get off here and put ice on it and freeze the legs.. This is a temporary help, but it works a little,and whatever helps, I will do..