Well, another day has passed and both hubby and myself are doing betteer today. Guess last night was just a hard night. I tried talking about not taking our  over night trip on Sat, but he is stubborn, and we will continue planning this over nighter. We have to keep my sister occupied this weekend,as her boyfriends daughter is getting married, and to keep from having problems at the wedding,my sister will be with us. With her alzheimers, she doesnt always make it to the bathroom, and it would be hard for someone to watch her at the wedding all the time. I really dred this trip, but we will not be far from home, so if problems come up, we can get back here. We will pick her up tomorrow and bring her here,so we can leave from here,on sat.Boy, just read what I wrote last night, and I sure was having a pity me party.. I will say, I have more days then not that I have myself a pity me party.. Got to shape up and quit it!! I know I cant be upbeat all the time, but don't have to have this pity me party so much. Next time I will say "HEY SELF KNOCK IT OFF"....But it is hard watching someone you love suffer.I do thank allof my new friends for their encouragement and thoughts and hugs..This is a great way to vent, and I do truely mean it when I say thanks!