Wow it's been 6 months since I last wrote in my journal.  Well, I finally saw a pschiatrist and was put on Paxil and Klonopin.  It's been 5 weeks since I started it and I am starting to see light at the end of that dark tunnel.  I am only taking 5mg of paxil because that is all I am able to handle without feeling awful.  My dr. said that was not enough to make me feel better, but I actually do feel a little better.  Every time I try to up the dose it makes me feel worse.  I still don't get out much but I am trying a little more.