It's been a while since I have written in my journal, not much has been happening in my life, pretty boring as usual. My daughter and I signed up for Curves yesterday and I plan on going this morning- I sure hope I can do this. I have to get out of my house and face the world and it is so hard to do, but staying inside is driving me nuts! I still haven't ventured out alone and I really need to start getting out by myself, I still go for my walk but that is only up and down my block. I feel like an injured bird that can't fly, now I am trying to mend and be able to fly everywhere I wish! I still want to go to the Panic Assistance group but every week I come up with some dumb excuse as to why I can't go - I have to stop making excuses and just go, my husband (safe person) is willing to go with me and I know that if I don't feel comfortable I could just leave, but I am terrified of facing my fears.
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hi hudson, hows today? took a nap yesterday and am still up next day. i have been taking little walks up my corner and back, because i have a chiuhauha, 3 months old. he dosen\'t do anything, he is puppy pad trained, i just take him for exercizing (puppy energy). another day stuck in. i need cigs., but no store is close to me & i can\'t take a bus!!! never!!!! so i have to depend on someone which i hate to be a burden. i stay in so much, i don\'t even care if i get a shower anymore. i\'ve been in the same shorts & t-shirt for 3 days now!!! grossing myself out, i will take one today, never was like this. gotta get my life together, i know i\'m in a rut. i don\'t know which is worse p.a., or this staying in. i feel life is passing me by. i\'m venting sry. just so tired of the same old s--- day in & day out. take care my friend. sry all i did was complain. hope your feeling better then me. i guess today is just a bad day. (((hugs))) ronna