It's been a while since I have written in my journal, not much has been happening in my life, pretty boring as usual.   My daughter and I  signed up for Curves yesterday and I plan on going this morning- I sure hope I can do this.  I have to get out of my house and face the world and it is so hard to do, but staying inside is driving me nuts! I still haven't ventured out alone and I really need to start getting out by myself, I still go for my walk but that is only up and down my block.  I feel like an injured bird that can't fly, now I am trying to mend and be able to fly everywhere I wish! I still want to go to the Panic Assistance group but every week I come up with some dumb excuse as to why I can't go - I have to stop making excuses and just go, my husband (safe person) is willing to go with me and I know that if I don't feel comfortable I could just leave, but I am terrified of facing my fears.