I had a good weekend! I am now able to go into restaurants and be ok - I still have a thing for wanting to sit by the exit but that is a far stretch from not wanting to go into a restaurant at all! I have been going into stores a little more, I am most comfortable not having to go to the back of the store, once I attempt to go deep into a store I start to panic - I don't have a full blown panic attack but I fear having one so I work myself up. The only way I could do any of the above is if I am with my husband (safe person). I am soooo dependent on him that it sucks, but then I should be thankful that I do have someone who is willing to work with me :) What all this means is that I am still a prisoner of my home Monday - Friday. I really need to get out during the week without my husband but I don't know where to start. I am still terrified of being alone out in the world and having an attack :( Baby steps, baby steps!
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