I had a great birthday!  My husband bought me an IPHONE!!!!  My son took me out to brunch and I was able to handle the restaurant which is awsome!  My husband took the whole family out to dinner and that was a little bit harder - but I did survive it!  I am home alone today which it difficult for me I always have somebody around but not today - I start feeling anxious and my mind wonders alot when I am alone :(  I am going to try something different today, instead of letting myself get anxious I am going to work on projects to keep myself busy, I need to stop feeling sorry for myself because life is good!  I have therapy on Friday, I really think that is helping me even though I panic alot before my session hopefully if I keep going I will get used to it!  I have started reading Help for your nerves by Claire Weekes - it is very interesting and I am sure going to try to follow it!  Thanks to all of my friends who read my journal and write comments, keep them coming because it really does help me!!!!!