I think I am hooked on D.S. - I check my messages and hugs all the time!   Today has been an ok day - I have been trying to keep myself busy in order not to get my mind wondering about my panic it seems that the more time I have on my hands the more I worry about me - I have a real hard time keeping myself busy - I have a ton to do but can't complete anything, I seem to get bored with everything.  I am kinda down today, I had a really bad argument with my daughter and I said things I should not have said - tomorrow is my birthday and I told her I didn't want her to come see me or call me but I really didn't mean it but I am a very stubborn person and I don't want to call her.  It seems that I hold on to things that make me angry and then I explode after a while it is hard to control my temper - I really need to work on it.  I am thinking of joining Curves and I actually made a call to check the prices and told them I would come down tomorrow - I really hope I can do it, I need to make up with my daughter in order to it because I will not go alone and she is one of my other safe persons!  Why o why am I soooo stubborn :(