My anxiety level is high again : (  I sure wish that was a magic cure - It seems that I have all the tools necessary to fight this but I can not seem to come ahead.  I really need to start getting out of my house, exercising and eating right - I am not sure what would motivate me to do all I should be doing.  I have diabetes and am scared to death to go to the doctor for medicine to control my blood levels - I have a fear that he will tell me I am dying : (   This makes no sense because half the time I do wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to suffer anymore.               I have soo many projects going on and I can't seem to finish or concetrate on any of them - I wonder if other people have this problem too?   I feel that I have reached rock bottom and I don't want to be there anymore.  Welll I guess I should stop rambling on and work on getting better!  One thing is for sure me writing in my journal does help me, the comments people leave are also very helpful!  I am happy the weekend is here and I will have people around to get my mind off my anxiety!