I hate Mondays. I feel like a failure today - I had to cancel my son's appointment because my daughter is still sick and needs to go to the doctor. I was really going to try to go to my sons appointment, but when I canceled I had mixed emotions - sad that I can't do things on my own, happy I didn't have to go : ( . I really need to be more independent. I feel that without a safe person with me I can not function - it sucks. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself today - what else is new, I do that quite often. My therapist told me that fear of dying is because I am not living my life to the fullest and I wonder if that is true - it kinda makes sense to me but then again if I didn't have panic I would be living my life to its fullest. I would love to hear other peoples feeling about this! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for me.
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Dont beat yourself up, You had to cancal anyway.
tomorrow WILL be better, i am \"sprinkling Happiness\" ur way *.*.*.*.*.*.*.*. xx dont feel guilty abt today either, you cannot be in two places at once....xxxxx
That doesn\'t make sense to me. I fear dying..it never leaves my mind. But in order for me to live life to the fullest I would have to stop thinking about dying so much. I mean I guess it is worth a shot though, trying to live life differently than I am now.
Tabby xoxo
Each day will get better. Not sure I understand what the councelor means but there must be some logic behind it.
*HUGS*