Starting over

Yesterday was my 23 birthday.....and yesterday i would have been 8 weeks my baby would have had a heart beat....i was so looking forword to yesterday but all i could do was try and hide all my feelings away and try to be happy....i miscarried 11 days ago this has been so painful and i wish there was something to take the sting out of everyday life...but i will move on each day i feel better but i know there will be times when i think o i would have been this far along or o today was my due date....i have the feeling that God is going to make me a mother one day....i was one for 6 weeks then it was gone....i am very thankful for this website there are times when i feel like i am in a room with the lights out and trying to find the door...but i know one day probably sooner than i think i will be pregnant again and start all over a new clean slat is sitting and waiting for the taking...i just have to learn that God is in control and i am not....there is nothing i did wrong...there is nothing that i could have done to keep my baby.......and now i have to remeber that the sun will rise and that i will have a tomorrow and each day there will be something God will throw you weather you think you can deal with it or not he knows you can and he will be there to help you through it all...and he has sent me an angel to help me through this hard time i can not thank her enough for listening to me and helping me through it...and i wouldnt have her as a friend if i didnt sign up for DS....she has been a sturdy rock for me the past 11 days... i hope i can be that rock for someone else one day too....