I will take T's advice and stretch before I walk from now on and hopefully that will help my lower back.  I know some of it is because I'm carrying around so much weight.  My feet feel better since I got the Ryka running shoes.  Well, tomorrow is laundry day, have to pack for the trip, pick up books on CD for the trip, pick up Rx's , take Duke to the kennel and clean my room.  I hate coming home to a dirty room or house.  We'll clean up the house too. It's really not bad just need to be vacuumed and dusted and bathrooms cleaned.  I'm leaving Lucy by herself with a big bowl of food and water and let her fend for herself.  I've left her for a few days before and she always been fine so I'm not worried.  If we were going to be gone longer I would put her in a kennel but we are only going for 5 day.  I'll be home on the 24th, leave thursday.  I'll stay in touch with everyone though.  Jean has internet. I read a poem on the boards that some girl wrote and it reminded me of how awful this illness can be.  You can get to a point where you just don't know what life is for and all is hopeless.  I really can't write it, it's something you feel.  Luckiy right now I'm not like that, my meds are controlling the depression to a point.  Im a 4-5 today.