Well... uhm... I've never actually written one of these before so, I don't really know what to say. I have written in a journal i keep at home, but it's kind of different.I can't sleep right now, and I have a lot on my mind, and i was hoping this might help. Lately I have been struggling with falling asleep at night, I lie awake at night constantly thinking about numerous things and it's like my mind won't stop running. I toss and turn and I try thinking of happier things or listening to music, but it hasn't been working as well as it used to. I also have been having a lot of panic attacks, and it's starting to worry my friends and family. In just this past month i have had about 7 or 8 panic attacks and everyone either suggest going to therapy or taking pills to make it go away. I have been to therapy before and it didn't work, my therapist wanted me to take anti-depressants, but I don't want to and my mother doesn't want me to either. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm going crazy and I can feel myself breaking, and I don't know what to do anymore.