There are some days I don't want to get out of bed, but I do.   I find goals to do each day.  I'm a writer,  I have 4 books I got published  I also love creating jewelry.   I just wish I could sell more of it.   I'm unemployed atm and that is part of my frustrations,   that and the fact I'm living with my friends.   She is married and has an 11 year old daughter.   I just wish that I'd made different decisions. 
I miss my nephew, but he seems to have his own life and I don't seem to fit in.  Granted he's 19 years old but he has always been so precocious   He is graduating from college this coming year.  
I'm estranged from my brother (his father)  he abused me emotionally and left me financially ruined.   I don't think he realizes what he did to me.
I try to be hopeful but it's hard to feel that way when I feel like I'm in a hole and I can't get out.