I have one more week until my appointment at the pain clinic.  I'm still disappointed that we can't do the ketamine due to the heart rate. It's so hard to function when my pain scores tend to be 8-9 on the pain scale, sleep is mediocre at best without Ambien, and a lot of what I want to do is cry. I'm trying to take this all one step at a time, but it's hard. I'm trying to keep stress down, but with the bridge collapse, that's tricky.