I\'m Back!!

Hey Everyone,Its Becka, i'm back! I want to say thank you to everyone for all your hugs and messages and i want to say a special thanks yo Bettybelle who came on here and let you all know what was going on.I missed you guys so much, i want to be honest with you guys so thats what i'm about to do and i know i may upset some people and might make some angry and i apologize in advance for that.I'm now out of hospital but not because i'm better but because i lied and said i was better. I was so petrified about talking and about being asked over and over whats going on inside my head and i dont know how to answer that i cant because i cant make sense of whats going on inside my head.So i told the doctor i was fine and was safe to go home but i dont really feel that way but i'm gonna try, i'm gonna try to keep myself safe.I know deep down i should've stayed in hospital and been somewhere i was safe but i'm a coward and i just couldn't.I want to say a special thank you to Aunty Robin for the support she gave me and a special thank you to Jules who phoned me whilst i was in there, i'm sorry i missed your call.Sending *HUGE huggles* to you ALL!!Luvya Loadsxoxox