Pushed away is how it goesIt happenes to mebut no-one knowsyou can not seethe things you door how they affectthose around youI think for nowand ever moreits best if youdont talk no-moreto me i mean.JUST GIVE UP AND  DONT TALK TO ME ANYMORE THERES NO POINT. I'M A WASTE AND ALL I DO IS HURT YOU. I'M SICK OF HURTING PEOPLE BUT I CANT HELP THIS. I DONT WANT YOU TO CARE, I DONT WANT YOU TO LOVE ME. YOU CANNOT LOVE NOTHING AND THATS JUST WHAT I AM. I'M SORRY AND THATS ALL I CAN SAY.I think i might leave DS because i dont feel i belong here and all i've done is hurt people since i got here and i dont and didnt want that. I dont know anymore. I'm gonna stop writing because i cant write whats in my head its just so f*cked up.take care of yourselves,beckaxoxox