Hey Everyone, Just wanted to say thank you to all of you for your hugs and messages and all the kind words you said...I appreciate them all...i truely do...you all mean so much to me...I love you all.I 'm abit upset atm and worried and i feel my mood droppin...my friend has swallowed a whole load of pills equalling 7560mg and i dont know what to do i tryed so hard to help her and to show her how much she means to me...i wish i could just go over to her house but i cant as she's livin in mexico atm...I dont know what to do she wont answer on msn anymore and i'm so scared and worried that i've lost her...she helped save my life at the beginning of this week and now i've failed to save hers...I dont know what i'm going to do and to top that all off i'm ill and thats made my mood low...i dont want to slip into the dark place but fear i will...I'm trying so hard to be positive but its not easy at all.I'm not on medication to give me that extra support and i cant be atm anyways...I'm glad i have all of you but i dont want to make you feel bad by going to you for help or guidence or support...i've hurt alot of people that way and i dont want to do that anymore.I'm so lost and feel so alone atm...i want to help my friend so badly but i cant...i cant call her as i dont have her number and as i said before i cant just go over to her house either.I dont know what to do!Luv to All, Becka xoxox
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becka: all you can do is wait and pray. you may not think it is so much, but it is. what you have done right here, is a beautiful thing. maybe its too late now, but i will pray for her also...and its because of you. others will help ...because of you. together we may help her, or at least help you too. becka..you are no burdon, you are my friend. we support each other.
becka, you must understand this...you and i, dont save anyone my love. \"they\", make the choice to end it or not. it is there wrong thinking that caused that, not anything you or i did. your notes and hugs to me, help me every single day bec. here is a help...close your eyes and see your friend safe and happy. dream of her well, and not hurting beck. see her in your mind as happy and loving you. it\'s the negative thoughts that hurt us so much. becka, I do know how hard this is, and i know its not easy, but you must try. it helps me so many times. it does take practice. becka...i love and adore you. sorry about feeling ill. whatever the outcome...may your friend be blessed; and i can promise you...she loves you so much. you cant save the world my dear friend. no one can, we simply do our best. i wish you were taking a med for a while to get back on track. tell someone that you fear your slipping back. tell them today becka.
anyhow..you are loved and needed as my friend.
dennis